Sunday 18 November 2012

She has a name.


She has a name

I had a girl once
In my life some time ago.
She made me feel things
Ones I’d never felt before.
She was so beautiful
Laying on my bed
But now she’s bound me up
And left me for dead.

She has a name

She has a name

Lust was on the list,
And controlling was the game.
Deep in this paradox
We both felt no shame.
Closer I came to her
The more I cried her name
Did not deny her once
Now my heart’s all aflame

She has a name
   
She has a name
I’d never been so happy,
And it all seemed so prefect.
I wish I only knew,
The hell that came into effect
Everything was all a lie
Nothing I knew now was real.
How can I ever trust again?
Because all I feel is betrayal.

Never to let you in again
Never to trust you again
I’ll try to deny you,
To silence you
To erase you

But all I hear is your name

She has a name

She has a name

Now I only feel pain
Trying to unplug this madness
But I guess it’s too much
To ask for a little help and solace
So I’ll sew my eyes shut
To blind my sight of you
I’ll sit here now and pray
To start my life anew.

She has a name

She has a name

And her name was love…      

Tuesday 6 November 2012

Where darkness lies deep



Where is the sunshine on the meadow?
Where is angel that was singing?
Where has it gone now?

It’s all covered in shadow
It’s all drowned in water
It’s all just gone now

Taken by the lust in their eyes
Because the fixation became too much
The weakness they showed here today
Will not go unpunished

I feel the rain pounding down above me
Pounding to the rhythm of my heart
Faster and heavier it gets when you are near

Here I hold in my hand
Cold, smooth and sharp
Violating with no soul
Caressing against the skin

Lust by my blade…
Die by my blade…

Creeping down your spine
Shivering as it does so
Watching tears of blood run down your face
As I whisper in your ear how much I love you
Too hurt you, wearing the shame like skin
Like a whore. Wasted and thrown away
Only to burn…
Burn…
Burn…
Burn…
BURN…
BURN!!!!!

Look at me in the face as you BURN!!!!
Burn…
Burn…
Burn…

Stare in my eyes as BURN!!!
Burn…
Burn…
Burn…

Take it all away from me
Nothing can hurt me now
Take it all away from me
Nothing can hurt me now

BURN IT ALL!!!!!!!





  

Rebound Girl


Rebound Girl

Spin your web round me,
Hope and desires
Imprisoned by your glaze,
A mystery transpires.

But now I’m caught in your grip again

It’s not your fault
You’re just a rebound girl
Stop playing this game
You’re just a rebound girl
  
You’re just full of needs
All this attention
Don’t put the blame on me
Creating all this tension.

I never wanted this
I wanted affection
But instead of love
I got rejection.

But now I’m caught in your grip again

It’s not your fault
You’re just a rebound girl
Stop playing this game
You’re just a rebound girl

When you whisper in my ear
I hear the loneliness in your voice
It’s not your fault your like this
You’re just a rebound girl.

Saturday 23 June 2012

Fairy Tales No More


Fairy Tales No More

As a young child
I stared at the world
With wide eyed curiosity
So innocent
So naive

Fairy tales of heroes and knights alike
Conquering over the darkness and blight
Pictures painting scenes of happy endings
Sunshine and rainbows fill bright blue skies
All LIES!!!

Dreams of romance with ending of a fable
Thinking all the bads been brushed under the table
Don’t be fooled
Don’t be mislead
For the real nightmare begins
When you wake from your bed

Now you can see
The world for what is
All the stories were warnings
All the tales bore meanings

There is no magic, nor mages,
All but plagues and diseases,

No knights to come and save you,
Only soldiers that will kill you,

Not with the knife, not with the sword
All with a bullet and with the trigger,

No monsters, no demons or vampires
Just cheats, killers, rapists and liars!

FEAR!!!!!!

Fairy tales…
There all but lies…
Hidden meanings disguised
To hide harsh realities from eyes

It’s time to sleep
With fairy tales no more…   

Friday 22 June 2012

World Eater


World Eater

Feeling the cries as the world comes to an end
Left behind with nature as it all starts to bend
The damage has been done, no time to amend
The cancer
The horror
The hunger
The rapture

Swallow the world, life and all the pain.
Only consuming, we’ve only ourselves to blame
Take one last breath and prey before the fall
Close your eyes, it’s almost over, no more
NO MORE!!!

The grey clouds circle all around us
Bring together the fuel and fire
Run and hide if you can
But watch as all hope turns to ash…

Don’t just sit there don’t you feel the pain, the shame.
God dam what’s up with you, your all just the same.
I can’t seem to maintain we’re all going to die in vain.
No forgiveness
No remorse
No grief
No responsibility
It’s all just SHIT!!!

Swallow the world, life and all the pain.
Only consuming, we’ve only ourselves to blame
Take one last breath and prey before the fall
Take my hand my friend and might not lose it all

The grey clouds circle all around us
Bring together the fuel and fire
Run and hide if you can
But watch as all hope turns to ash…

The colours sink in to darkness.

Distant from existence in time

Don’t blame me
Don’t blame me
Don’t blame me
Don’t blame me
DON”T BLAME ME!!!!

World eater!!
He comes!!

World eater!!
He comes!!
Don’t blame me!!
World eater!!
He comes!!

World eater!! 
(Swallow the world, life and all the pain.)

He comes!!
(Only consuming, we’ve only ourselves to blame)

World eater!!
(Take one last breath and prey before the fall)

He comes!!
(Take my hand my friend and might not lose it all)

We’re all to blame for the darkness…


   

Monday 4 June 2012

A Confession


A Confession

 Given up, succumbing to the music, away from what I thought I knew.
 Falling far into distance, a feeling I suffered to long its untrue.
 Tell me its fine, tell me it’s ok, tell me it’s not just me and you believe I belong here too.

Ran away, to place deep inside, away to somewhere distant and new.
I couldn’t stand this emotion, no more constantly feeling blue.
But one thing has been missing in my life and that one thing missing is you.

Thursday 24 May 2012

Wasted time

its been a while so heres a short one I wrote not to long ago. Feeling time isn't on my side lately and that I need to use my time more wisely. So heres a song about an old man who wasted his life and only realized it when it was too late. HAPPY DAYS!!! !..!,

  
Wasted time


An old man unlucky and alone,  

Feels he’s wasted his life away.

Nothing to show for his time,

No child to care for

And none to care back.



No prayer

Ever reached the stars,

Only one

Tear touched the ground.



Frail the body now that dreamed,

Of something full, more than this

It’s a life packed full of regret,

A life still so empty

Submerged in memory



No prayer

Ever reached the stars,

Only one

Tear touched the ground.



The man who gambled his years away

Left with nothing

A cold encasement and stone awaits

No eulogy

And no second chance



No prayer

A wish too much

Only one

A dream too little



Looking in the mirror…

(No prayer…)

Realizing he’s not who he thinks…

(Only one…)

The truths bolder on the outside…

(No prayer…)

Left to die away and soon forgotten…

(Only one…)



Feel little pity with his wasted time.

Come shake the hands of the unlucky one.


Thursday 17 May 2012

What!!!

Alot of the songs i've written so far have been quite serious, so I wanted a change of tone and the way i think about lyric writing. This song i think speaks alot of what i'm thinking but you have to read this is a funny voice to really get what i'm saying.
Hope you all like it.


What!!!



Pick up your guitar boy and play me a tune

Like those hippies on the six o’clock news

Driven out of town by their own communion

I blame it all on the upper classes, so I say

Strangle them by their ties and swing them

Round and round and round and round

Till I’m dizzy!!!



Now,

Writing this song is so dam easy

And singing this song is even easier

Just say it in a funny voice like

Yee hah!!

But this shit don’t write itself you know!

WHAT!!!

WHAT!!!

WHAT!!!



Pluck those strings and sing me a song

No hidden meanings or I’ll just feel sick

None about politics and none about death

Don’t make me feel depressed, so I say

Make it up on the spot, make us jump

Up and down and up and down

We’ll have party!!!



Now,

Writing this song is so dam easy

And singing this song is even easier

Just say it in a funny voice like

Woo Hoo!!

But this shit don’t write itself you know!

WHAT!!!

WHAT!!!

WHAT!!!



Solo time!!!



Sing it a little louder boy!!!



WHAT!!!
WHAT!!!
WHAT!!!



Hey boy you think this shit writes itself,

It don’t you know.




Saturday 12 May 2012

the Suns of June


The Suns of June

Scorched by the burning suns

The sky’s open all around me

Drop your weapons and lay down your guns

Then feel the sun smile back and see…

We wonder why we can’t sleep

As we stare across a lifeless wasteland

For now’s not the time to stop and weep

Hold your head up high and make a stand…



With the hourglass now half empty

I’ll refill it all one day

With each grain of sand lost in time

Is blown back in our faces



In the June time sand storm



No longer blinded by the sun

I look up to the sky and smile

Thinking about everything said and done

I know that it was all worthwhile…

With a different look In future

And I still can’t sleep at night

Always keeping it together

Holding on to this piece of starlight…



With the hourglass still half empty

I’ll replenish my life in sand  

And with each grain of sand I find

I begin to heal again



In the June time sand storm



I’ll find my way home



Bring my flock with me



One last time I’m sorry…



Forget the light in your eyes… And look upon the sky of crimson

Forget all the hate and lies… And embrace the cult of the sun

Accept the burden we bare… And stand with us in twilight

Safe, here from this nightmare… And here we’ll stay until dawn



Watch the hourglass break



The sands spill across the floor

  

Time finally ran out…

The rhythm… Frozen still…



The sky will never close shut in the June time sand storm that will never end!!!





But now I’m at peace

With the light upon me

In an era I like to call

The suns of June


Saturday 5 May 2012

A Shadowed Pride


A Shadowed Pride

A child... To young…

For these burdens…

No dignity… No worth…



Forces him to grow and bare this weight

Crushed… under the disappointment.



Father why!

Too long I sat in shadow,

Tried to be everything

You wanted me to be.



Armed only with his wounds to show

Scared… deep on the inside, so cold.



Father don’t!!

Don’t scrutinize me

Swallow your pride and

Hold your breath…



Judge me no longer…

Now I will be free from control.

Hold on to every lesson learnt,

I won’t let this be again.

I curse the words you never spoke to me

And only I will define who I am,

Because I can be so much more

I just need to break away…



FATHER!!!

Made me grow up to fast,

Only to let me down and

Left me with no path to follow



Throw away your disgust.

Throw away your pride.



Take that blunt stare

Take that dead husk.



Take it all away.

I have no use for it now.



Leave in search of something,

Something that matters to me

My time to finally slip away,

To a vale far over mountains



Because there’s no love here for me…



Nothing for me here…

Thursday 3 May 2012

Gentle Brutality


Gentle Brutality

Violent expressions speak louder than words

Changes bring something unexpected

Hold on…

Be all you can be.

Take all the hatred on the inside…



But be gentle.



Blunt your knife to soften the blow,

Show me how you forgive.

Hold on…

Take me as I am.

Lessened by the poisoned words…



But be gentle.



Come take my hand,

Relax, lean on me.

Don’t feel out of place,

Trust no one but I.

Protect you from darkness,

From the grey claws,

From the prisons riddle

Fear no more

I’ll be gentle



I’ll be gentle



I’ll be gentle



I’ll be gentle




Monday 30 April 2012

On this day I remember

there are always good and bad times we will never forget and people in our lives we've all lost, etc. Well this is a song about remembering those times and no matter what other people say its ok to feel down about it knowing that it still hurts. But most importantly be proud that you remember it because it's your memories, your life.  


On this day I remember

Sleep deep now, for this slumber brings release

Dream down golden rivers of familiar faces

Little faint curses unlock my faded memories

I remember it all now…



The journey we took together

With tears and eyes closed shut

Alone now I will never forget

For on this day I remember…



I remember.



Forget the day you ran away from me

Recall the good times and the times I lost

Echoing through my very existence

I remember it all now…



The journey we took together

With tears and eyes closed shut

Alone now I will never forget

For on this day I remember…



I remember.



Always reminded of being… Mortal…

Always calling out form my… Heart…

Never will I ignore the aching… Scars…



Take my hand and help me. Remember!!

Away from these clouded thoughts. Find!! 

Shelter my sanity from the haunting visions

Once again I will never forget this day…



Remember… Remember…

Remember this day…

Remember… Remember…

Remember this day…

Remember… Remember…

Remember today.





 

Sunday 29 April 2012

S.I.C.

I really hate to admit it but in the past month my faith has been really shaken and i don't know what to believe anymore. This song I wrote put my whole experience in one place, when you feel tied down and lost at the same time. It is the longest song i've wrote so far and probably the most personal too.



S.I.C.

I listen for your voice

And looked out for the signs

Heeded all you told me

And followed all the guide lines



At times I felt strong.

But now I am drained

Swallowed up and hollowed out.

A voice once to teach

But now I’m deafened

By shouts of judgement and criticism

Heavy are the chains

Carried for so long now

Chained to die in one’s service alone…



What choice have you even given me?

I am a servant in chains

I am a slave to your ways

I am a puppet in your hands

No more…



Feeling so lost and confused

And constantly being pushed in line,

I wasn’t the misguided one

And still waiting for that day to shine



As the temples empty

And the prayers silence 

On my knees I prayed for love.

You left me weak,

Where did you go?

Leave me shadowed and used.

Wish for distance now

Chains begin to break

You can’t offer me any life I’d take…



What choice have you even given me?

I am a servant in chains

I am a slave to your ways

I am a puppet in your hands

NO MORE!!!!!



Contradicting words and actions

No praises given only taken

As my light forever darkens

Never have I felt less certain.



I desire too, I’m only human...

I’m dead on the inside…



Blind with ashes in my eyes,

Aching with the past screams

Deafen from the cold silence.

Chains worn thin and old,

Why don’t you kill me???



What choice have you even given me?

I am a servant in chains

I am a slave to your ways

I am a puppet in your hands

NO MORE!!!!!



No more…

Will I be chained in your service



No more…

Will I be your servant anymore



No more…

Will I be… your servant in chains…