S.I.C.

I really hate to admit it but in the past month my faith has been really shaken and i don't know what to believe anymore. This song I wrote put my whole experience in one place, when you feel tied down and lost at the same time. It is the longest song i've wrote so far and probably the most personal too.

S.I.C.

I listen for your voice

And looked out for the signs

Heeded all you told me

And followed all the guide lines

At times I felt strong.

But now I am drained

Swallowed up and hollowed out.

A voice once to teach

But now I’m deafened

By shouts of judgement and criticism

Heavy are the chains

Carried for so long now

Chained to die in one’s service alone…

What choice have you even given me?

I am a servant in chains

I am a slave to your ways

I am a puppet in your hands

No more…

Feeling so lost and confused

And constantly being pushed in line,

I wasn’t the misguided one

And still waiting for that day to shine

As the temples empty

And the prayers silence 

On my knees I prayed for love.

You left me weak,

Where did you go?

Leave me shadowed and used.

Wish for distance now

Chains begin to break

You can’t offer me any life I’d take…

What choice have you even given me?

I am a servant in chains

I am a slave to your ways

I am a puppet in your hands

NO MORE!!!!!

Contradicting words and actions

No praises given only taken

As my light forever darkens

Never have I felt less certain.

I desire too, I’m only human...

I’m dead on the inside…

Blind with ashes in my eyes,

Aching with the past screams

Deafen from the cold silence.

Chains worn thin and old,

Why don’t you kill me???

What choice have you even given me?

I am a servant in chains

I am a slave to your ways

I am a puppet in your hands

NO MORE!!!!!

No more…

Will I be chained in your service

No more…

Will I be your servant anymore

No more…

Will I be… your servant in chains…